Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

I still miss her a lot.
I know I'm. Drop of tears which are sticking on my eye lashes now and my sticky wet cheeks have showed that... I really miss her.

Well, I thought I can overcome my emotion after several attempts of holding back my tears - sadly, it's not tonight. Grandma's spirit will return to her house tomorrow night and all of us will be back and ready for another ceremony.

I guess some of you who have never heard of the Chinese's belief might be shock with my words "Grandma's spirit will return to her house". According to the Chinese, during the 16th day (I'm not sure about this honestly) of death, the spirit of the people will go back to their own houses.

That's the time in which they will have their favorite food, visit their family and do things that they love to do before they really go.

I know, it sounds like in the TV drama as it might sound ridiculous to some of you. To be frank, I'm not sure how true it is. Well, I don't mind. Since none of us know the exact 'event' happens after death- either you are living in another 'world' or you're really gone forever. So, I will go back to hear house tomorrow and do the ceremony.

Right now, I've been thinking:

What if there are really spirits in this world?
What if my grandma really turn into a spirit?
What if she really come back to her house?
What if she has a message/messages to tell everyone of us here?

What if there are no spirits?
What if my grandma will not return as a spirit?
What if my grandma is gone and no longer here?

I'm not sure are there "heaven and hell" in this world where your enemy will be waiting you in hell; or your loved one will be watching you and guarding you in the haven. It's too subjective and it's depend on which one you want to believe. As for me, I believe there is "heaven and hell". Well, I've my own religion and belief right?

Thinking about these questions have made me realized that, I still miss my granny and deep in my heart, I terribly wishing her to come back. I don't care how insane I may sound here. I guess, it's a normal feeling for someone who has just lost someone important, someone who they love a lot.

Just flipped through my photo album and found out these 3 photos:

During 2004

Her birthday - 2004

I found this photo in her little drawer which was placed next to her bed. She kept this photo with her all the time. I remembered how my hands were shaking as I hold the photo close to my chest. I thought she doesn't love me as much as others. Since then, I know how wrong I was. silly me!

I don't know why my tears just can't stop right now. It has been nearly half and hour. I guess, it's because of the memories and this song, "Bye Bye" from Mariah Carey.

During the last day of my grandma's funeral ceremony, my cousin told me he had coincidentally heard a song from Mariah Carey- Bye Bye from the radio when we has in the car. He was surprised with the lyric and touched by the words.

Lucky enough, one of my net friend sent the song to me few days later and since then, I've been listening to the song for thousands of time.

I should claimed that, this is MY SONG!!!



BYE BYE - Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye




I guess, Mariah Carey write this song for herself too. Thanks for this lovely song, Mariah Carey. You've sang this beautifully.
Grandma, I miss you.

Choi Heong Yuen Bakery, Macau

Wow...
I guess I've nearly forgotten about my Macau post. I've stopped blogging my travel post for nearly 2 weeks until one of my friend reminded me. Haha.. thanks Cfy. It did take me some times to edit those photos and finally, they are ready to be served for my readers.. :)
My last post: Here.

Can you feel my excitement again?
Lol... Whenever I blog about my Macau trip, I can feel how excited I am. (Mentah-mentah la kurang keluar)

As I've promised you, I'm going to show you around with my bus!!!


Yes!
You're in my bus now, can't you feel it?


It was raining heavily at that moment which had caused us being trapped in the bus for few hours. Hmph... how unlucky I'm. Somehow, I still manage to snap some photos in the rain. We'd been suggested to visit some famous bakery shops for their local product such as biscuit, tart, nuts and etc since it was raining so badly.

We did pass by....


Mc Donald,
Pa dap pa pa pa.... I'm Loving It!

And about 15 minutes journey, we reached the shop.


Well, we were safe under my care. Hahaha....

I drove a BUS...
Do you believe me?


Better not!
Haha...

While waiting on the bus for the rain to stop, I unconsciously did Karen Cheng pose. Lol... I didn't know about it until Kennysia blog about it. Haha... Whatever, I like this effect.. ;)


I like the building for their ancient design and classic colour.
The combination is perfect!
I wanna own a shop like this!!!

Which one look better?

The sky was dark and cloudy... and the floor was wet.. >__<

So, this is it- The Choi Heong Yuen Bakery Shop in Macau.
Welcome to the shop and make yourself like home here.. :P

So, here are their products and grab as much as you want.. hehe..

'Han Yan' biscuit

Honestly, I don't like the 'han yan' smell. It feels like cockroach smell to me..
Oopss.. sorry..
but I really afraid of that smell.

Somehow, my mum told me that the taste was great.

While I was wandering around the place, I spotted this. It looks nice. $18 per pack.. Emm...
Then, I found out something even more tempting.. 'Bak Kuah'!!!! Oohh... my favorite!!!!


I convinced my mum to buy 'Bak kuah' for me but then.. she refused. Her reason was:

"It will be too oily to keep in the luggage. Get them in Malaysia"

Sigh...
Who wanna keep in the luggage? I wanna keep them immediately in my digestive system before flying back. Excuses!!!

Nevermind, because later I noticed something even better. Yes! The Portuguese Egg Tart!!!! Gosh. My stomach is drumming right now although I just have a Chicken McD + French Fried + Coca-Cola. Shit!


I wanna fly to Macau for more egg tart right now!
*flying without wings*

While my parents were busy purchasing their products, I took the chance to scan around the whole shop. Again, I discovered something new, something worth to be shared here.

This is their High-Tech-Kitchen. Haha... Ok.. Not that High-tech since they are trying to keep the tradition look of their kitchen as much as possible.
So, this is it!


They use charcoal to make their biscuit which make the taste even tastier.. emm... :)
I wonder did they used charcoal to make the egg tart? Because the egg tart is really good...
*yum yum*

Clean..

After spending for about half an hour there, finally we reached the counter and pay for the products. While I was standing in front of the counter, I saw a poster - about the "No Plastic" campaign. It's for the environment awareness campaign and I kinda envy with their government. At least, they do something meaningful for the country and the world in order to prevent global warming issue. Unlike us, we're still busy handling the problem of corruption and political issues.

Sigh....
*big sigh*
*add a bit sweat*

Based on the campaign, every customer will be given a reusable plastic bag- Yup. Just one. But then, I was wondering: Shouldn't they use something like paper bag instead of plastic? Emm....???


This was my last photos before the sales assistant stopped me from capturing any photo in the shop. It's ok. I've a good collection of them, right?
:D

P/S: I wonder, why don't they just let me snap more photos. I'm promoting their shop and their products, right? Puff....

Some interesting posts about Macau that you might be interested in:

• Unforgotten Moment In Venetian
• A Romantic Moment In The Venetian Macao
• Breakfast In Macau
• Macau Tower
• The Surprises In MGM Grand Macau

Enjoy!
:)

My Most Embarrass Moment

We were told to write a story about the most embarrass moment we have ever had during in my counseling class. I was like... "Uhhh? My most embarrass moment?". I tried to say no to my lecturer actually since I hardly remember any of my history. Guess what did he say?

"Setiap orang pasti ada ceritanya dan cuba ingat kembali. Mungkin kamu tidak ingat kerana sejarah kamu terletak pada tahap Superego or Id berdasarkan teori Sigmund Freud". (Malay version)

"Everyone of us here will have at least a story to be shared and try to recall them. Maybe you'll hardly remember anything right now because most of them are in your Superego or Id level according to Sigmund Freud's theory" (English version)

Sigmund Freud's theory is about conscious (ego) and unconscious (id) mind and I'm about to dig them all out. Em... maybe some of it? :)

Well, I managed to write an essay last night for my lecturer and decided to pass up my homework to him this morning. Sadly, he asked us to keep it. Sob... In order to not wasting my work, I decided to blog it here. Shall we?

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This is how it sounds like:



At first, I thought I didn't own any story of my embarrass moment. After spending a night thinking and recalling my history, I realized that I do have a few. I guess I've successfully transformed my superego into ego level?

As far as I can remember, my most embarrass moment took place when I was in form 1 (secondary school). It was during my Kemahiran Hidup class in which we were allow to choose either KMT or ERT for this subject. I took ERT and never know that disaster might happen after that.

The teacher in ERT was strict and fierce and none of my friends like her. All of us were so afraid to even look at her. My dark history take place when one day, Mrs Tan, the ERT teacher had given us some homework and needed to be passed up on the next following week. The day had arrived and she checked all of her students homework including mine. Unfortunately, I'd forgotten about my homework and ended up being caught and punished. Poor me. I'd to stand in front of the class, facing all my friends till the class ended.

Of course, her punishment didn't end there. A few of us were ordered to clean the room including the windows and toilets. I could see some giggles from my friends when I was moping the floor with my untidy hair. Sigh...

Ever since the incident, I started to hate the class and. The punishment did leave a great impact on my emotion. I felt totally embarrass and left out.

Soon, I changed my class from ERT to KMT where majority of the KMT students are males. I didn't care how weird I might look like as far as I could escape from Mrs Tan. Yeah. My new mission. At the end, I did change.

Maybe changing the class was a big mistake I had ever done in my life. I didn't know exactly the rules and customs for a student to change a class since I was still a freshie at that moment. So, one morning when I as happily entering my KMT class, a friend of mind suddenly appeared and informed me that Mrs Tan were looking for me. So, I joined her and met Mrs Tan. Before stepping into her class, my body had started to shiver. I could sense that sometime worse was going to happen.

I was right. It was something worse. Sigh.. I was once again being asked to stand in front of the class, facing about 45 girls who were mostly my friends. There was a long silence while I was standing at a spot. I felt how small and weak I was. The atmosphere made me felt like I was a murderer or rapist who was going to be sentenced to death. She left me aside and continued her teaching before bombarded me with her sarcastic questions, 15 minutes after that.

My body was shaking as I tried to defend myself in front of my friends. I could hear some whispers from the crowd and I knew, they were all about me. I wished I could run away from the class immediately but then, I know I've to face the music, just sooner or later. After the 20 minutes lecture from Mrs Tan, I was allowed to leave the class and joined my KMT class.

I know I'm wrong and I should learn from my mistake. So, ever since the incident happened, I try to improve myself by being more responsible to myself and my work. I will not going to spoil my reputation any longer.

Do I still hate the teacher? Nahh... I don't hate her any longer as she's a good teacher. She did teach me something important and I will always remember that - Ok, not the being humiliated part of course!
Lolx....


The End

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I've been wondering, why we were asked to write our embarrass story to him? Anything to do with Sigmund Freud's theory? Or any counseling theory? Ahh... I don't care. I wanna sleep now. Lately, I'm so exhausted. I guess, I need more rest and sleep. Good night my friends. See you tomorrow.. Have a nice day!
;D

Revive My Blog Post

KIF (3point8) has invited me few weeks ago to join his new mega project. At first, my reaction was like...

"Uhh?"
"Wow!!!"
"Emmm...."
"Ahaaa........."

After listening to his 'proposal' and some details on how the website will run, I'm interested and soon agreed to be a member. Instead, I'm one of the admin! (including 3point8, Sharoning, Unfortunate Infection and BlueStorm Vs BlackStorm). Yahooo! I'm so excited for this right now!



What's Revive My Blog Post?
It's a blog where all the top blogpost can be found. That's mean, there will be juicy, yummy post everyday being posted up from different blogger (who registered and is a member). For more information, click here.

Honestly, this idea is new and fresh and I'm not sure how far it will be. But for sure, it will keep on running so that our readers can get fresh, good quality post everyday. Besides, this is the time for the bloggers to meet and become friends in a growing community. Isn't that great?

We will be glad to have you around both blogger and non-blogger. You can give your sarcastic opinion or love message in every corner of the provided comment box. We will love them! :P


I've even created a group for ReviewMyBlogPost in Facebook. Do join our group and voice yourself there! Click here.
See ya!
:)

Doing Curryegg

To be honest, I'm a regular reader of kennysia.com. Well, who will not be addicted reading his humorous blog? This Sarawakian guy is so hilarious and things that he blog is intriguing.

Lately, I've come across with one of his post- Doing Karen Cheng. I guess, I'm blogging this as my response for the post? Well, I never know that snapping photo in front of the mirror is a trademark for Karen Cheng, not until Kennysia has blogged about it. Thanks for introducing Karen to all of us. I have found another good blog to read... ;)

As I browsed through some of her photos, I found something familiar. Hey! I know it! I use that same pose too! Gosh! Am I doing Karen Cheng for all these years without realizing it? Lol... I guess, that has become a trend for the youngsters (I am still young right?)

Grabbed from my photo album:






Since Karen Cheng has her own pose, why not Curryegg make one too? Lol... I've this crazy idea this afternoon and was playing around with my white digital camera. Unconsciously, I'm too excited to create my own pose till my mother was shocked looking at me standing in front of the mirror and window for so long.

"Mum, I'm on my mission"...

Rules number one: If you wanna do some great poses, do it alone. No parents.

I guess, I'd spent half an hour in the room but sadly.. I couldn't get my Curryegg pose...

Still Karen Cheng's pose?

Too ordinary pose..

Maybe this one?
*pinch*

Frankly, it's not easy to create a pose which is strange and unique. I'd been thinking very hardly before a brilliant idea came striking my mind. Guess what?



Yes.....
The egg!!!

Why I'd never think about that before? Curryegg should have at least an egg with her or else a bowl of curry or even better curry+ egg. Lol... Great!
That will be my "Doing Curryegg". Muahaha...


Somehow, there is a pose which is much better than mine and I know I will never do that! A pose which I think it's cute (sadly, not for me)

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Honestly, shall I try this?
Yes? No?
Never!